i decide not to live
and in that moment
there is no more false hope
no sudden change of mind
and certainly no fear.
There is excitement
and curiosity
as i run with open arms
to meet the reaper
most of all
peace of mind
the voices in my head shut up
and my true voice remains
to hail the grim angel
random, irrelevant thoughts
flash through my head like stars
elated but now fearful
as i take Death's hand
knowing that i cant go back
perhaps i blinked as
my fingers touched his sombre grasp
but now my eyes are open
he carries me high above the world
but then suddenly
i slip from his hands
and fall
and i wake up
greiving that i am still alive.
Feast your eyes upon me
betrayer of hopes
cold and indifferent to your desperate lies.
trying to keep me
like a thorn inside your flesh.
i have no use for you anymore
why do you want me to stay.
you bleed from the thorn in your heart
yet you only drive it deeper
hoping foolishly
that i will be yours
and stay inside you like an infection
numbing your pain
as my poison spreads.
foolish girl stay away
but you did not listen
and now i am trapped within you
i cannot be pulled out
dying with a smile on your face.
All of us are dark inside. It takes many different forms in many situations in many people; but at our core we are all selfish and evil. Love that person more than anything? You will hurt and betray her and have her betray you in turn. Bring a child into the wold? That child will grow to hate you. We replace people in our life on stupid whims; we stab each other in the back for a moments attractive opportunity; we beat on our freinds to make ourselves feel better. There is no such thing as unconditional love or eternal love; these are foolish cotton-candy beleifs made up by teenage girls and idealistic brainwashed men. We are motivated simp